God is love

GOD LOVES ME MORE THAN I KNOW

By Sr. Grace 

When I was in grade III my cousin asked me what would I want to be in the future. I told her that I would like to become a nun though I didn’t see even know any nun. It was amazing because of the words that came out from my mouth “to become a nun”! Perhaps I had only heard it from my mother and I repeated it. She was my first catechist, patiently teaching us how to become nearer to God. Actually everybody in our house should encounter in an exact time to pray the rosary everyday.

            Time ran so fast and I forgot the words that I said to my cousin.

 When I was already 18 years old, it entered in my mind again. But I was a little bit hesitant for it might be mistaken! Besides I did still want to explore the different aspects of my life much more the doubts that continuously tormenting me. So I decided to work while waiting for the right time.

            At the age of 22 there it came upon in my mind to talk about my vocation with my mother. She listened to me carefully, scrutinizing every words that came out from my mouth and her conclusion was no for she knew how naughty I was and how numerous my friends were. My father was also against me for I’m only her daughter. He was afraid of his future, thinking that I could not attend his needs anymore when he would become old. He said that he would not talk with me for 10 years if I would enter the convent. But I did believe “God will make a way when there seems to be no way…”  In fact HE gave me an instrument  who helped me how to find a congregation. She introduced me this community (CSSTA).

 But again when I was already there, temptations had never abandoned me for I met some religious sisters who invited me to become part of them.  O my Jesus…how hard it was to love and follow you! But thanks for that encounters…I had learned to value my decision. That is to become a Teresian sister!

            Community life is not an easy way. It calls for a deep prayer, justice and true humility otherwise all sacrifices that I have made will turn to nothing. These are the wings that I have learned on how to become faithful to HIM. Now I can say “THANK JESUS and MARY for loving and protecting me from harm. May the Blessed Virgin Mary continue to teach and guide me as I continue my journey.